The pregnancy seemed to run smoothly at first, I had less morning sickness than with my others! We looked forward to having our baby so much. At the 20 week scan we were told that there was too little fluid, and the placenta was dangerously low.We were told the fluid will probably sort itself out though, so off we went, worrying but reassured that everything would be fine.

              
Four days later I started bleeding, i was told that i had grade 4 placenta preavia, but with close monitoring we should both be fine, there was a risk i could bleed heavily though. Then at a follow up scan when i was nearly 23 weeks pregnant, they told us the devastating news, that there was absolutley no amniotic fluid whatsoever, and our baby would not survive out side the womb.There was something wrong with his kidneys, and his lungs wouldn't grow and his growth would become so restricted..... 




                              




On the 17th March 2006, our  5th baby, our 3rd son, was born sleeping.He was a big boy for the gestation, weighing 1lb 5oz, and measuring 33 cm long.We spent 6 hours holding, cuddling, kissing and talking to our special boy.We gave him his daddy's name as a special middle name.We also gave him a couple of cuddly toys, an Elephant (his big brothers each have an elephant toy too) and a Giraffe, and we gave him a little roo blanket that was his big brother Benjamin's when he was a baby. 
Words are not enough to describe our love for Oliver, or the pain we feel knowing that we can never hold him again.....
                       

                           

One day we will all be together again my darling........and then we will never let go.......


               




                                            


                                          

                       


On the day that you left me
I thought that I would die
I wondered where the time went?
I asked alot of whys??
With people all around me
I felt alone inside
From all their words of comfort,
I couldn't seem to hide,
I thought I might be dreaming
That I'd wake and find you here,
I thought "This can't be happening."
As I wiped another tear.
On the day that you were laid to rest
My heart broke yet again,
I wondered if the pain would end,
But mostly, I wondered when??
It's hard to be without you,
At times the days seem long,
Sometimes I just sit crying,
When there's really nothing wrong.
I wish we'd had more time,
Before your life was done.
I hope your resting peacefully,
My precious one

You Are To Me (this was also read at Oliver's funeral.)

You are to me....
The child whom moved inside my womb
Who was born unto me and had lived if only for moments
but who will live in my mind and heart for an eternity

You are to me.....
The child they will not mention,
the child they pretend did not exist.
Please remember my child as if he lived a lifetime
because he lives inside my heart-forever-until i draw my last breath.
I will always remember him.

You are to me...
Butterflies in the spring.....
A rainbow after the rain....
Stars on a warm summer night.....
The sun shining to wake me through my window....
All the earthly beauty my eyes can see
and the warmth of true love.

You are to me an angel whom taught me to be a better person
Showed me how to have compassion for others in need
Showed me how to be a stronger person to face my fears
and most of all.....
touched my heart with your unselfish love.

You are to me.....
My Angel

               

A Child that loses a parent is an orphan,
A Man who loses his wife is a widower,
A Woman who loses her husband is a widow,
There is no name for a parent that loses a child,
For there is no word to describe the pain





An Angel Never Dies.

Don’t let them say I wasn’t born,
That something stopped my heart
I felt each tender squeeze you gave,
I’ve loved you from the start.

Although my body you can’t hold
It doesn’t mean I’m gone
This world was worthy, not of me
God chose that I move on.

I know the pain that drowns your soul,
What you are forced to face
You have my word, I’ll fill your arms,
Someday we will embrace.

You’ll hear that it was meant to be,
God doesn’t make mistakes
But that wont soften your worst blow,
Or make your heart not ache.

I’m watching over all you do,
Another child you’ll bear
Believe me when I say to you,
That I am always there.

There will come a time, I promise you,
When you will hold my hand,
Stroke my face and kiss my lips
And then you’ll understand.

Although I’ve never breathed your air,
Or gazed into your eyes
That doesn’t mean I never was,
An Angel never dies.

            
           
                                                                   

             
                                              
                                                                                           






Oliver has many angel friends.........

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www.jessica-szydelko.memory-of.com 

www.david-stephen-daniel.memory-of.com

www.paige-leigh.memory-of.com 

www.hywel-m-williams.memory-of.com 

www.oscar-avery.memory-of.com

naima-phillipsmaund.memor...about.aspx

ryanhill.memory-of.com

www.freewebs.com/amieeandhayleysplace 

http://riley-herbertevans.memory-of.com  

harvey-bax.memory-of.com/about.aspx 

www.kori-hubber.memory-of.com

www.kayla-walters.memory-of.com

www.joshuahays.co.uk



We would like to thank SANDS  for the help and support they have given us over the past few weeks, and thankyou to the many friends we have met....we should never have had to meet this way, but you have helped us more than you know.....




             

On 3rd sept 2006 i completed the womens Hydroactive 5k challenge along with other special mummys to angels. I personally raised £255 and i could feel Oliver helping me round all the way. I feel so proud having done something so positive, thankyou everyone that sponsored me and thankyou other sands mummy's that took part. xxx





                     







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